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1.
she doesn't usually smoke but when she does she's a chimney / and i'm watching grey smoke fall and crash around her fingers / while she smokes an american looking cigarette and a bottle of writer's tears sits nearly empty / i sit and contemplate this love for loneliness while she writes short stories / she asked if i had a muse and we both know it's the bottle / it's kind of sad but it's true we laugh at the heavy things / she strums my old guitar and sings me something bittersweet / i get deep in these moments because i know that they'll leave / she smokes an american looking cigarette and a bottle of writer's tears sits nearly empty / i sit and contemplate this love for loneliness while she writes short stories
2.
Sober Dawn 03:40
the light's on and the morning's calm / you wake up to find a sober dawn / the glass is empty and last night's wine is less than I'll be needing / until I find a better way of being / when the night comes that's another day gone / juxtaposed and passed over living in between bars / finding love in the new ways of avoiding the bad tastes that you'll find in the same old places / pockets empty and I can't take you where you want to be / my clothes are worn out and I look the same / papers torn up because the news hasn't changed / sometimes we all need a change / until I find a better way of being / when the night comes that's another day gone / juxtaposed and passed over living in between bars / finding love in the new ways of avoiding the bad tastes that you'll find in the same old places
3.
you're always right and i'm always wrong / i'm always wishing i was burnt out and living in a nowhere town / like a stranger by the sea with noone left to find their way to me / you'll be in a new town singing the same damn songs but not for me / you slept on my floor and as the years passed by you never married him / and i was never much more than i was back then or who came before / you'll be in a new town singing the same damn songs but not for me / you'll never be lonely when everybody knows you / and i can't help feeling regret while i'm drinking alone again tonight
4.
Home 03:13
i light my way home with half smoked cigarettes / find myself alone with your hair still in my bed / i'm hung up now and i wish that i could make this end / since i saw your pale face staring under that sun hat / please give me one more for the way home / if i'm drunker now it's for the way home / pour me another for the way home / if i can find my way back home / i take a breath and i feel it starting to unwind / easiest for you under your thumb you'll know just where to find me / each word you speak reads like a perfectly read line / i stumble home so bitter you're the whisky and the rhyme / please give me one more for the way home / if i'm drunker now it's for the way home / pour me another for the way home / if i can find my way back home / home / it's a sacred place when the heart stops moving and the walls become a grave / home / it's a wretched man when the heart stops feeling anything it can
5.
Sinners 02:38
i tasted blood and it lingered on my lips / with every fall i had a new reason to drink it down with every new mistake that i made / god made me a sinner if there ever was one / i hate the winter and i guess i have become what i hate / with every love i've had and let slip away / as if to feel safe with nothing left to save / god made me a sinner if there ever was one / i tasted blood / god made me a sinner if there ever was one
6.
Never Meant 02:54
i could say you're wrong if i put pen to paper / all damn night / never had quite enough to drink to get a night's sleep / never had quite enough to drink to say the right thing / the right thing never got you to me / i have wasted words on these pages and miles out on the road / every fucking drive hours out at a time / never had quite enough to drink to say the right thing / the right thing never got you to me / i could say you're wrong
7.
Been Gone 03:53
earliest i remember tornado warnings and shelter from the storm / we had to build something to hold onto or i'd have kept moving on / ontario winter keeps me locked in tight / i should have went south you could have been right / why am i staying here if i could have been gone / i could stay broke and live more than honest if i headed east and lived in montreal / we could have a few drinks and have a few more then what am i good for / i could have been gone / i love northern ontario it's more beautiful than ottawa fall / but it's even colder still than my damn town so why do i hang around / i could have been gone / i haven't heard her southern drawl in quite some time since she headed west crossing state lines / if california keeps you cold at night you left me nothing but cold / when half your life is dark and cold sunset sunrise are outdated truths it's hard to build something to hold onto to keep from just standing still / i could have been gone
8.
New Blood 02:41
jesse got married and opened otherside tattoo / the rest of our friends still getting by wonder what the hell are we supposed to do / coming up short and burning out strong / wasted years on tattoos and rock n roll songs / i could use some new blood / and let out all the bad blood / where i'm going makes more sense than where i've been to / and the roads just seem too dark to take without you / jonny's still singing somewhere passed midwestern states / strumming so hard on guitar in basement shows and those basement dates / never knowing for sure but still going on strong / i wish he'd take me with him down south so i could sing along / i could use some new blood / and let out all the bad blood / where i'm going makes more sense than where i've been to / and the roads just seem too dark to take without you
9.
November 02:25
i'm kicking out my legs / and trying to take a deep breath and do what's right / im throwing out the reasons / hoping i can swim when i see daylight / broken days seem longer / sleeping cuts the daylight to shorter hours / i'm smoking through the worst of it / hoping i don't leave you with the worst of this / i'm counting down the days and the weeks and hours / that i watched you change since you were mine / all this time is wasted / old lovers on a wire / mistaking a flutter for a flight / the timings never right enough / to say you had the right time for this / i'm counting down the days and the weeks and hours / that i watched you change since you were mine / all this time is wasted
10.
baby i'm a mess tonight / without your smile / without those eyes / baby i'm a mess tonight / four weeks long since i held those arms / couldn't be so wrong when you're so close to me / worried all the way we'd spend divided lives / you ask me where i'd have you be / baby i'm a mess tonight / without your smile / without those eyes / baby i'm a mess tonight / dundas west you brought me whisky in a water bottle / held my hand as the bands played through the night / i whispered things i wish i had never said / you never really had the time anyway / baby i'm a mess tonight / without your smile / without those eyes / baby i'm a mess tonight
11.
send my regrets through telephone / always find myself calling home / rents due and i'm leaving town / i'm always leaving / i'm always leaving you / like those summer songs we'd sing all year / even when it wasn't honesty / i always knew there wasn't honesty / i'm always leaving / i'm always leaving you
12.
leave a little light on babe i'm coming home / i'll be coming soon but i've been drinking long / leave a little light on if you're not up getting stoned / leave a little light on / shoes get harder to lose / your eyes are closed tight / mine will be joining yours quite soon / leave a little light on babe i'm coming home / i know you've got one eye open hoping i ain't done you wrong / leave a little light on i'll be coming home / leave a little light on / crawled my way from past mistakes / dragged my way from night's embrace / to find you drinking wine and getting stoned / leave a light on i'll be home

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released May 25, 2018

The North Fields, on Sober Dawn, are Jonathan Becker with Laura Sinclair, Luke Pearson, Vance McBride, and Cory Levesque.*

All songs written by Jonathan Becker (SOCAN)
Arranged and performed by Jonathan Becker & The North Fields
Recorded & Mixed by Topon Das at Apartment 2 Recording
Mastered by Dean Watson
Artwork by Pascale Arpin

*With special guests Marlena Pellegrino on Violin and Pascal Desgagne on Pedal Steel

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